Sunday, April 8, 2012

It's Not You, It's me.

Failure is usually a result of your surroundings? Think about those around you for 5 minutes,are they helping your dream or holding u back?

- Chad "Ochocinco" Johnson

Dear Alcohol,
You and I have been together for the better part of the past 15 years. It all really started those first few weeks of college and we've been happy together since. Well, until now. You helped me have fun through college and until now, but I think we need to take some time off. It's not you, its me. I've been accepted to this elite (yes, I know I can handle a large amount of alcohol, but I would not say I'm an elite at that) triathlon team and I need to put up some solid numbers this year. I let the temptation of friends drinking drag me in last year and I couldn't stop myself, but I saw you trying to rear your ugly head over the past few months and there's not really time for you anymore. You're gonna have to find someone else to give that hangover to, cause it's time you and I take some time away from each other. They're some solid people, and I want to be able to reach my goals as a triathlete this year, not blame myself for going out and getting hammered the night before and miss a long ride. See you at some point soon, but not for very long. You're just gonna have to figure out how to move on, but you've been a good companion.
Regards,
Bill

Yeah, last year I let myself get tempted by a large amount of binge drinking, bad eating and other habits in a year where I should have been getting myself ready for Lake Placid. I was able to salvage a decent second half, but As the same issues started rearing its ugly head this season, I tried to cut off the problem, but it definitely reared its ugly head at, let's call it, an inopportune time. I'd like to thank a teammate for making it glaringly obvious soon after it happened, it was the line in the sand with this whole issue. Being on a great team like the Wattie Ink Elite Team, I want to improve far and above the numbers that I put up at Rev3 Cedar Point Half (5:55) last season. I have some of the best teammates who have soem of the biggest hearts and athletic abilities I know. To give anything less than my best would be a full failure, and this is not what will happen. Trying to coordinate a cross-country job search in LA is proving to be hard, and I need all the minutes in the day that I can.

I'm ready for a new chapter in my life to begin once I can find a job and coordinate all that I need to be doing about going out west. My NYC and B-school friends (both my training and social) are people that I will miss, but they all know that they have a couch to crash on where ever I end up!

Most of all, I have surrounded myself with a good group of friends in my life who have been very good to me. Definitely very thankful to one of them especially caught me when I slipped last year, regardless of how far he buries me on the bike. I figure eventually I'll be able to do the same when we're 65 and 64 and racing each other at some 1/2 iron or something.

But first, my first race of the year is 3 weeks away! Can not wait to throw my ERC race wheels on the bike (or maybe my Zipp 900 rear) for the River Challenge Duathlon in 20 days! Hopefully I find my run legs before then!

Oh, and there will be more frequent updates from now on, I promise! And definitely fixing this plain blog up!

3 comments:

  1. I like it Billy Boy! And I'm crashing on your west coast couch. I'll bring the cucumber water :D

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  2. Nice dude, yea beer doesn't taste as good when you're not racing/training up to potential. It's rad that your making that sacrafice, I'm sure you'll see huge gains! GL w/the job hunt - I'll keep my eyes open for you out here

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  3. Bill: I enjoyed your blog! I agree that our new team is filled with wonderful people. Good luck this season.

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